Capital "F"

So it has been a little while now.. I have successfully had 46+ mental breakdowns in the past 2 weeks. I am trying to master working, going to school, sleeping, studying, eating, and having "me" time... Not going as well as I thought it would. I don't know what a normal life is anymore, I'm so Frustrated. Yes with a capital "F".

I'm working so hard towards my goal and am not really seeing any outcomes. I came across this article- Frustration and 8 ways to deal with it. I think that it is a bunch of BS. 1. Ask Yourself, “What Is Working in This Situation?” ehhh.. I'm gunna say not too much. Because of school, I am having to take off work more then I expected or wanted to. I can't sleep cause I'm up studying all hours of the night and hardly passing. Barely eating.. I know not good. "ME" time?? HA. The only thing that I can see is working is that I am still alive.. with my FRUSTRATION. 2. Keep an Accomplishments Log. Is this like a to-do list? if so how do you want me to juggle this one? I am so busy I forget that I left clothes in the washer 2 weeks ago. How will the to-do list help? I will forget that I have one or most likely misplace it. 3. Focus On What You Want to Happen. So I'm trying.. obviously I wouldn't be torturing myself with all this stress if I wasn't working towards something besides insanity. 4. Remove the “Noise” and Simplify. Did I tell you I was from the city? With a major airport less then 10 mins from my house. So even if I were to relax in the tub to get away from everything I still have the huge Boeing 737s flying over my house sporadically throughout the day. O and the fact that in the city people will call 9-1-1 for a broken toenail or a kitty in the tree, which makes those darn ambulances buzzing around loudly. 5. Multiple Solutions. Yes there certainly are. I know I am not the only one being driven insane from tying to multi-task 200 things in a day. But here are my choices... (A) Continue on with things they way they are and eventually get though it with an uncountable amount of "breakdowns" (B) Quit school- not a realistic option for me or (C) Quit work- HA HA don't I wish. 6. Take Action. The most action besides peeing and a shower or 2 here and there is hitting the snooze button on my alarm clock... God I love to SLEEP!! 7. Visualize a Positive Outcome to the Situation. I have done that... Graduate and get done with it while sucking everything up and being destructive in the process. I messed up once and can't afford to do it again. 8. Stay Positive. They say things aren't as usually as bad as they appear.. Try me. Come visit. Come help. Come see for yourself. I know I don't have kids, I'm not married. But I can tell you what.. I'd be in a sanitarium. I know I would not be able to deal with things as they are now if I was married with children. At this point, I can barely take care of myself much less someone else...