ENGAGED

There really hasn't been much happening in my life in the past few weeks. I started a new school term. I have 1 down 5 more terms to go!! Our terms are only 9 weeks long... we have to cram alot of things in that short amount of time. SUCKS! AHH. Ok so on a better note... I got engaged Saturday April 12th! I'm super happy and so excited. Mark and I already know that we are getting married outside. We wanted a beach wedding.. but decided to be realistic. We want all of our friends and family there.. If we were to go to the beach, there would be alot of important people that wouldn't be able to make it. So we are okay with getting married here in Cincinnati. I am doing lots of research and think that I have found a place.. Now all I have to do is let Mark in on it!! LOL. He really isn't your typical guy. He actually wants to be involved in it! I was shocked when he was excited to help me handmake our place settings. I wanted to get really involved in my wedding.. wow.. my wedding??? that sounds so weird. I know that I may only be 21.. but if you think about it.. we have been together for almost 5 years and he is 27. We have spent alot more time together then most brides/grooms before their wedding. O well i'm not judging anyone else nor expecting you to. So my ring is fabulous... It literally is exactly what I wanted. I feel that I am just like every other girl in the world and picked out her engagement ring loooong before their actual engagement. Luckily I gave him all the right clues with the help of a fab friend and TA-DA.. I got what I had wanted. It looks amazing:) It is an Emerald cut ring with princess and baguettes on the side. Let me just say that the damn thing SHINES! I can't stop looking at it.

We were thinking May 1st as a date. It's not too hot or too cold for our outside wedding. I think that it will be perfect. I didn't realize how much work it takes to start to plan a wedding.... jeezz how did all these women survive though this? I'm going to say alcohol and massages!! That is all I have for now!

Capital "F"

So it has been a little while now.. I have successfully had 46+ mental breakdowns in the past 2 weeks. I am trying to master working, going to school, sleeping, studying, eating, and having "me" time... Not going as well as I thought it would. I don't know what a normal life is anymore, I'm so Frustrated. Yes with a capital "F".

I'm working so hard towards my goal and am not really seeing any outcomes. I came across this article- Frustration and 8 ways to deal with it. I think that it is a bunch of BS. 1. Ask Yourself, “What Is Working in This Situation?” ehhh.. I'm gunna say not too much. Because of school, I am having to take off work more then I expected or wanted to. I can't sleep cause I'm up studying all hours of the night and hardly passing. Barely eating.. I know not good. "ME" time?? HA. The only thing that I can see is working is that I am still alive.. with my FRUSTRATION. 2. Keep an Accomplishments Log. Is this like a to-do list? if so how do you want me to juggle this one? I am so busy I forget that I left clothes in the washer 2 weeks ago. How will the to-do list help? I will forget that I have one or most likely misplace it. 3. Focus On What You Want to Happen. So I'm trying.. obviously I wouldn't be torturing myself with all this stress if I wasn't working towards something besides insanity. 4. Remove the “Noise” and Simplify. Did I tell you I was from the city? With a major airport less then 10 mins from my house. So even if I were to relax in the tub to get away from everything I still have the huge Boeing 737s flying over my house sporadically throughout the day. O and the fact that in the city people will call 9-1-1 for a broken toenail or a kitty in the tree, which makes those darn ambulances buzzing around loudly. 5. Multiple Solutions. Yes there certainly are. I know I am not the only one being driven insane from tying to multi-task 200 things in a day. But here are my choices... (A) Continue on with things they way they are and eventually get though it with an uncountable amount of "breakdowns" (B) Quit school- not a realistic option for me or (C) Quit work- HA HA don't I wish. 6. Take Action. The most action besides peeing and a shower or 2 here and there is hitting the snooze button on my alarm clock... God I love to SLEEP!! 7. Visualize a Positive Outcome to the Situation. I have done that... Graduate and get done with it while sucking everything up and being destructive in the process. I messed up once and can't afford to do it again. 8. Stay Positive. They say things aren't as usually as bad as they appear.. Try me. Come visit. Come help. Come see for yourself. I know I don't have kids, I'm not married. But I can tell you what.. I'd be in a sanitarium. I know I would not be able to deal with things as they are now if I was married with children. At this point, I can barely take care of myself much less someone else...

My Doggies

I've been reading a ton of blogs in the past few days to get an idea on how to keep mine going. I saw on a few different blogs that there are kids posted up in the window waiting for either mommy or daddy to get home... Well here are my kids waiting for me to get home!!













Cute huh?? So my kids are patiently waiting for me to get home so they can eat dinner and play a little more before bed time. Lemme give you a little description of them. Skye (brown) is my 4 year old..very very mellow pup. She's a go with the flow, very laid back type of dog.. All she wants to do is lay there and sleep, which is perfectly fine if you ask me:) She likes to go on walks, run in the yard chasing things that only she can see, and being the queen of the Allview Castle! Tyson (cow colored) is my 8 month old pup. His favorite thing is to go outside and bite the twigs off the tree and bring them to the door to show you what he has done. Such a sweetie!! He is the most clingy dog I know. He has to be at your feet... no scratch that - he has to be on your feet. If you are sitting on the couch he will sit or lay right on your feet. Heaven forbid you move them.. cause that little squirt is adjusting himself to where he can touch you. If we let him up on the couch.. beware he will take over.. see the example below->
See what I mean? So in our house it is a game of musical chairs.. here he is taking over Marks favorite chair... Pathetic I know... He's a beast. He only weights like 80lbs now, soon to out-weigh me. Skye is very patient with him. He loves to jump on her and practically bull charge her to knock her over. Poor Skye you are thinking... Uh No.. She does not let him get away with it. Once on her feet she will chase him and (just like in the olden days of school where the teacher grabbed your ear to put you in the corner) she bites his ear and will not let go until he is whimpering and whining. I guess that is their "uncle". I promise you. This is where I leave you.. And this is what my pups were doing about 10 mins ago.. They love to spoon!

My very first blog!!

So I got alot of hype about this so-called BLOG thingy. I decided i'd give it a try. As my first blog I decided to do an A-Z about me so all you people out there would know who I am!!
Here goes nothin..

A - Age: 21
B - Band listening to right now: Madina Lake
C - Career future: Nurse.. for some crazy reason
D - Dad's name: Carlisle
E - Easiest person to talk to: Steph - who for future reference known as Betty
F - Favorite song: Amazed by Lonestar
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy Worms
H - Hometown: Savannah, GA
I - Instruments: I've always wanted to play the guitar
J - Job: Patient Care Assistant
K - Kids: None currently.. but my friends kids are the best!!
L - Longest car ride ever: Florida to Ohio
M - Mom's name: Kathy
N - Number of people you slept with: I haven't lost track :)
P - Phobia[s]: Death
Q - Quote: "This is the beginning of a new day: God has given me this day to use as I will: I can waste it or use it for good: what I do today is important because i'm exchanging a day of my life for it: when tomorrow comes this day will be gone forever: leaving something I have traded for it: I want it to be a gain, not a loss; good, not evil; success, not failure; in order that I shall not regret the price I paid"

R - Reason to smile: I'm alive :)

S - Song you sang last: That new Mariah Carey song.. Touch my body
T - Time you wake up: 6AM
U - Unknown fact about me: I can be a nervous nelly
V - Vegetable you hate: Tomato
W - Worst habit: My attitude
X - X-rays you've had: over 30. high number for being such a priss huh?? LOL
Y - Yummy food: Chinese
Z - Zodiac sign: Gemini